huge rant now about my fucking misophonia and my dad.

posting this here because this is shit i think all the time and if i don’t get it out i’m going to go crazy

every noise my dad makes annoys the fuck out of me

he’s either coughing

or snoring

or clearing his throat

or doing something else that just bugs the fuck out of me

can’t you just like be quiet for once

i don’t understand why he’s so fucking disgusting

like i get he’s a guy and guys are normally gross but really

this is not even an exaggeration

you could (figuratively) ask my mom if you wanted to

i’ve decided he’s fucking doing drugs or something in the bathroom

because every time he goes in there i can hear him moving shit around

and then he’s like inhaling

breathing in through his nose

if he’s not doing drugs then he’s fucking snorting the air

which i don’t even get

and then he runs the water for god knows how long on the lowest pressure so it makes a high pitched noise

just fucking stop

he takes forever to shower despite the fact that he has hardly any hair

and then takes forever to get out of the bathroom after he gets out of the shower even though he never gets dressed and walks around in a towel

he is ALWAYS in the bathroom

that’s not even an understatement

doesn’t matter what time i wake up

he’s either already in there or going in there the moment i want to get up and wash my fucking face

every hour after he goes to bed

he gets up and goes in there

goes to the kitchen

the fuck are you doing just go to bed

like

possible tmi alert

but he’s on vesicare

which makes no fucking sense because it’s been a few weeks now so there’s no logical reason he should still be going that much

and when he showers

he runs the water again after he gets out

why

what could you possibly need the water for after you’ve just gotten out of it

i need to get out of this fucking house

it’s not healthy to constantly get pissed off by the shit he does

it’s not fair to have to fucking wait just to use the bathroom

even if i don’t have to go i would appreciate being able to wash my face or get something out of the bathroom instead of having to knock on the door and tell him to hurry up when he can’t even hear me

and i would appreciate being able to go to the bathroom and get ready for bed without being interrupted not even five minutes later by him 

oh and let’s not forget that my parents smoke

you know forget the fact that i’m not even supposed to be around cigarette smoke and it fills my room after you leave the bathroom

and stays in the bathroom no matter how long after you’ve left

i know this is a huge rant and i’m sorry if you read this because i know i sound like a whiny ungrateful bitch

but i get annoyed by the littlest things people do and i hate it

my mom basically does all these things too

i need to get out of this house

hopefully live with a quiet person who won’t annoy me

tagged as personal misophonia fuck 10.17.12 at 05:29pm ::: 4 notes


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